Friday, May 23, 2008


Do you ever get to the point where you literally throw your head back and lift your hands and say, "Why God?!, WHY!!??" That was me today. I sometimes feel like I cannot take ANYMORE bad news. First, the story of the family in my last post has been haunting me... It is such a horrible story. Then, today an awful accident on Rt. 97 involved parents of a student at Rippling Woods, the school I taught at for 8 years and the school Nick still teaches at. The victim was nine months pregnant and she and her baby both died as a result of the accident. Her surviving children are 8 and 9. uncle fell off of a ladder and had to be flown to shock trauma. He is suffering from many broken bones, including a broken pelvis. We know it could have been much worse and are grateful that it wasn't, but pray for him as he has many weeks of healing to come.
And so at a time like this, why is it that the only thing I can keep running through my head is this song:

Forever God is faithful
Forever God is strong
Forever God is with us

Coincidence? Probably not. I mean it really is STUCK in there. I even went on YouTube to watch the video to see if that would get it out, but nope... still there.

People have often said to me, regarding losing Caroline, "How do you turn to God when most people would turn away?" Granted, I do get mad, frustrated and even pissed off! BUT, I always try to remember that it could be SO much worse. Turning to God is the ONLY choice. Luckily, you CAN be mad at God and still be in a relationship with him. We are blessed because he loves us anyways...I learned that the hard way.


LWiltsey said...

I know...I have been asking that question too this week. My husband has a friend who lost his sister this past week...she was found dead possibly from liver failure from years of alcohol and drugs. He hadn't been in contact with his sister for a long time (long story...his family is highly dysfunctional and so is his wife's...who also lost her sister recently). My husband is one of the few stable people in his life, and I pray that his friend would draw close to God and understand that God is always there no matter how hard life seems and no matter how mad we get at Him.

Amy said...

I just found your blog through Heather and updated myself on your story. I can't imagine how you feel, but I am so sorry for your loss of beautiful Caroline.

I think days that seem piled with bad news (the accident and the Chapman tragedy both hit me in the gut) are days that make us cry out to God. I love the song that was stuck in your head, because we may not know the answers, but we can know Him, we can know that He is faithful.

I'll be following your story (and I'm a fellow Bal'moron and teacher).