Friday, December 26, 2008

The Best Presents

Spending time with family...

...and with friends...

...and feeling the baby move! He has really started to squirm these last couple of days! Even my mom and sister- in- law felt him kicking! It has been the best present I could of asked for.

This beautiful cradle was given to us by Nick's grandparents. It was used by Nick, his, sister, and his cousins when they were babies. I can't wait to use it with our little guy!!!

Thursday, December 18, 2008


I am officially PAST 25 weeks!
We made it!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

All I really want for Christmas...

If you haven't heard this song or seen this video... take a few quiet moments (and a few tissues) to watch and listen.

Then you can read Stephen Curtis Chapman's wife's blog here. Amazing!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Happy Sound

We got to hear the baby's heartbeat today! The last 2 appointments it was difficult for the doctor to find and we ended up needing a sono to confirm. Of course that was quite anxiety inducing for me! I prayed the whole way to the appointment that I would get to hear that sweet sound and my prayer was answered! Grow baby grow!!!!
17 more weeks to go! WOOHOO!!! Can't wait to meet you!

Monday, December 1, 2008

Salt in the Wounds....

It doesn't matter how long it's been... things still happen that just make you want to scream, cry, and be angry! I try so hard to remember that people don't mean to be hurtful, that everyone is so caught up in their own stuff that they forget, and some simply don't know our story. Sometimes though, I just want to wear a sign that says "Yes, I have a daughter. She is in heaven. Please don't say anything stupid, thank you very much."

First, I get an ad in the mail from Sears saying "One is Fun! Come celebrate your baby's first year with pictures!"

Then, when I went to register (yes, I finally bit the bullet and did that...) you have to fill out a registration form. Can anyone tell me why they need to have a place on there that asks "Is this your first baby?" Luckily my trusty sister-friend, Jessica, quickly checked yes for me and prevented a breakdown so I didn't have to contemplate what to do.

Then, at my parent teacher conferences, almost every single parent asked, "Is this your first?" I know that people mean well, but really, what am I supposed to say?!! I hate answering yes because it isn't my first baby, and to say that it is denies she was here. However, if you answer no then they will definitely proceed to ask, "Oh! How old is your other child?" or "Do you have a boy or girl at home?" So.. with that you have to tell the story and really most people are not equipped to hear it.

Finally, the icing on the cake.... last night my husband had his awards dinner for the JV team that he coaches. His boss, who definitely knows what happened, came up to me and asked, "Where is the kid tonight?" I must have looked like a dear in headlights when I replied with a shaky,"I am sorry, what did you say?" He then says,"The baby, where is the baby? Don't you have one at home?" "Nope" I replied as I glared at Nick thinking get this man away from me!!! Then he says,"I could have sworn you had a baby at home, but you just have the one on the way? Huh?" I wanted to deck him right then and there. I know he meant no ill will but seriously? This guy works with Nick everyday and he knows what we went through!

So there are just a few examples of a day in the life of an angel mommy.
Fun times, huh?